As stated in a previous post I am planning a trip to Costa Rica. I will be going on this trip ALL BY MYSELF. I have always wanted to visit Costa Rica, I honestly couldn't tell you the exact reason why except for the fact that anytime I think about traveling, my first go to place has been Costa Rica. No one has told me stories about the country, I don't know what to expect, I just know I need to go. I feel it in me, I NEED TO GO.
So when my relationship ended, within in 48 hours of ending, I started planning a trip to Costa Rica. I figured out the area I wanted to stay in, the adventures I wanted to go on, and the retreat I was looking forward to. I want to go visit the various markets and experience the culture as well. I have a lot on my list to do, so I am spending a week there. Experience and escape.
When I told my sister what I was doing, I asked if I was crazy, she told me "I am eat pray lovin' it". That's when I realized I have never read the book or watched the movie. So I immediately downloaded it onto my kindle. I dived in, and couldn't stop. Each time I was forced to set down my kindle I was thinking about the story, I wanted to know what Liz was up to next, I wanted to know what she was about to experience, I wanted to know what she was feeling. I just wanted to know more.
Now I know I am 10 years late to the party when it comes to enjoying this story, but I am happy I finally joined the party. Especially since I got to read her update about the 10 years after sharing her story to the world. The tenth anniversary starts with this story. I got to hear her point of view of what it has been like and just how happy she is. I got to read an additional ending. I got the aftermath.
So what does this story mean to me? Well it kind of gave me insight into my life. After every relationship I seem to escape and never look back. For instance after the last relationship before this one, I decided once I finished my degree I am moving to a place that had my heart, Colorado. So I transferred with the company, got rid of my stuff, and drove across the country first living in Denver, then down to Pueblo, and then eventually ended in Colorado Springs. I get to enjoy the life of the city and also the hikes on the outer edge. I especially enjoy the hikes that give you the view of the city.
I want to go into further detail about not looking back. I didn't look back to the relationship that ended. Why? Because I accepted it. It hurt at first when it ended but I accepted it, even without knowing why at the time. To me it ended out of the blue. He thought I wanted the next step because of how long we were together, but in all honesty, I was happy where I was at. He got into his head, thinking he wasn't ready for the next step, and he ended things. About 8 months after the relationship ended he asked if we could meet up for a drink, I agreed. He wanted us to be back together. I told him it was too late, I was leaving, I was moving to Colorado in 5 months. I still remember his face when he heard that news, it was full of regret, heartache, and sadness. It was as if his heart was telling his brain, "you screwed up". I was able to move on with no explanation, and I decided I couldn’t take someone back who decided to run away instead of figuring things out.
Now another relationship has ended and I am escaping again. Except this time instead of a move I am just visiting. I am going to Costa Rica, a place that has always been on my mind. I can't say that Eat Pray Love "made" me do it as I have never read the book or watched the movie, but I can now say that I have a deeper understanding of the story.
If you haven't read the book or watched the movie, embarrassingly like me, you should. It's more than just a story, it's an experience. I hope to one day experience the world with someone, but right now it is about me. And this is why I connected so easily to this story. I am not saying you need to get out of a relationship, I am just saying go find yourself, and hopefully you can do that while with someone.